Sunday, November 22, 2009

Gratutude

In church today the topic was gratitude, no surprise as it is Thanksgiving week. It got me thinking about what I am thankful for. There are so many things, the typical answers, family, friends, food, money etc etc. Well this weekend I became greatful for a surprising thing. I am grateful for stress. Yes thats right, STRESS! It is a big thing that has been in my life lately. We all go through it. Some more than others and we all handle it differently. I have been stressed because of school, trying to get everything done to be able to graduate next month, lots of tests, papers, and deadlines that need to be met. But I set goals and make sure that I stay on task so I can get them all done on time.
I stress about the wedding, about the many details that come with it. There is still alot of planning to do and tons of things to get done. It is a constant thing on my mind, but I take it one day at a time. I also stress about money and being able to make it through. I stress about not being able to sell my contract so that I can move when i get married. All of these and more cause me stress and grief, sometimes to the point where I break down and cry. But then I get up and move on.
This weekend I was able to have a me weekend. I didnt worry about school, or work, or planning a wedding. I had fun. I was able to spend it with my fiance, doing things together and just having fun. It felt so nice to not have a care in the world, to be able to be silly and have fun. I loved it. I cant wait until I can have more of those days. I think one of the reasons that I loved it so much was because I dont have them very often. My life is stressful and I don't have time to think about me. But because I stressed all week to get everything done, I had time to play. That is why I may be a bit crazy in saying that I am thankful for stress. What are you thankful for?