Gratutude

In church today the topic was gratitude, no surprise as it is Thanksgiving week. It got me thinking about what I am thankful for. There are so many things, the typical answers, family, friends, food, money etc etc. Well this weekend I became greatful for a surprising thing. I am grateful for stress. Yes thats right, STRESS! It is a big thing that has been in my life lately. We all go through it. Some more than others and we all handle it differently. I have been stressed because of school, trying to get everything done to be able to graduate next month, lots of tests, papers, and deadlines that need to be met. But I set goals and make sure that I stay on task so I can get them all done on time.
I stress about the wedding, about the many details that come with it. There is still alot of planning to do and tons of things to get done. It is a constant thing on my mind, but I take it one day at a time. I also stress about money and being able to make it through. I stress about not being able to sell my contract so that I can move when i get married. All of these and more cause me stress and grief, sometimes to the point where I break down and cry. But then I get up and move on.
This weekend I was able to have a me weekend. I didnt worry about school, or work, or planning a wedding. I had fun. I was able to spend it with my fiance, doing things together and just having fun. It felt so nice to not have a care in the world, to be able to be silly and have fun. I loved it. I cant wait until I can have more of those days. I think one of the reasons that I loved it so much was because I dont have them very often. My life is stressful and I don't have time to think about me. But because I stressed all week to get everything done, I had time to play. That is why I may be a bit crazy in saying that I am thankful for stress. What are you thankful for?

My wish list....

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are giving away a sleighful of gifts this holiday season and to enter I’m sharing this meme with you.

1. What 5 items are on your holiday wish list this year?
A new laptop
Mtn bike so I can start getting back into shape
A new kitchen filled with stuff to make yummy foods
A new couch and love sac
My wedding to be paid in full

2. What is your favorite handmade gift you have received?
A sweet letter and pics from my cute little sister

3. What handmade gift have you always wanted to tackle?
A cute apron!

4. What was the best Christmas gift you received as a child?
A big doll house
5. What items are on your kid’s wish list this year?
Dont have any kids yet....
6. What is your favorite holiday food?
Lots of sweets and ham!

7. What will you be hand-crafting for the holidays?
Possbily some picture frames and lots of food to eat

8. What is your favorite holiday movie?
Christmas vacation
9. Favorite holiday song?
The whole Noel CD by Josh Grobin
10. Favorite holiday pastime?
Being with my family and listening to music and just enojoying myself!

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Friday's are supposed to be good happy days. Smiles are all around and people cant wait for the weekend. Sadly I am not one of those. I am sad, I am tired, and I dont want the weekend too come, it is full of homework and no fun. I am ready to be done. Will life just end all ready? No more busy work!

Worthless

There are some days when I wonder if it is all worth it. I work hard to the point of killing myself to get it all done and turned in to please other people and no one seems to care. Why is that? I get so incredibly frustrated that I could scream. I have seriously contemplating changing my ways. Doing the minimal work and not worrying about the rest. Since no one notices there is no point in running myself into the ground right? Especially if it worth mere pennies on a paycheck. But that is a whole other story. Venting done, time to get back to homework.
P.S. Does anyone actually read my blog? If you do help a girl boost her self esteem and comment once in a while. Thanks!

Engagments

So we got our engagments taken about 3 weeks ago and got them back last night. I am not going to lie, most of the time I dont really like what I look like in pics. There are so many things that I would change about myself. One day maybe that will happen. But for now, I will deal with what I got. The pics look pretty good, it helps that the guy in them looks great! Once I find the ones I like I will post them. Here is one that I like.

Cinnamon Roll Cake

I know, two posts in one day! Crazy! But I had to post this. I am an avid food blog junkie, I cant get enough of them. I am always reading and getting new ideas, maybe one day I will have one of my own, but I need to find time to cook first. But for now I read and dream of things to make when I find the time. I found this recipe on a blog called Abby Sweets. My heaven, tons of sugar and good things! This is my first recipe that I have tried of her's and I will be going back for more soon! I made this cake last weekend for me and my man and he LOVED it! So I made it again for a party we went to on Halloween and they all LOVED it! I made it again last night for my family, and.... they LOVED it! So I thought I would share it. Maybe some of you will LOVE it too!! It is super simple to make and from start to finish takes less than an hour. Enjoy!

Cinnamon Roll Cake

Yellow Cake Mix
4 eggs
¾ cup oil
1 cup sour cream

Mix by hand and pour in 13 x 9 greased baking pan.

1 cup brown sugar
1 tbsp cinnamon
Mix and pour over cake batter. Swirl into batter with knife.

Bake @ 325 for 40 minutes. Let cake cool 10 – 15 minutes before icing.

Icing:
2 cups powdered sugar
4 tbsp milk

Pour over warm cake

On the 2nd and 3rd cake I didnt have sour cream and really didnt want to go to the store so I put in uped the oil, putting in 1 cup and then sprinkled chocolate chips on top. Divine! With sour cream it is a moist cake, with no sour cream and a bit more oil, a denser brownie like heaven. Either way they are to die for! Let me know what you think!

Really?!?! Leaving the stove on?

There are days when I cant wait to get married, so many things will change and I cant wait for them. One of them is living with roommates. Now dont get me wrong, I love my roommates, past and present, well at least most of them.... but there are days when I would give anything to not have to live with them. I think those days are happening alot more often as of late. I dont know if its because I have been stressed a lot with everything going on, or that in the back of my mind I know that I soon wont have to deal with them anymore, I dont know. I try to do my best and tolerate but there are some days when I have just had enough!

A few examples to the reasons behind my madness..... I came home last night to a house that smelled like something had been burnt, not unusual.... but still, it was gross. Went into the kitchen, covered in dirty dishes and food left out, floor was sticky, someone had spilled something and not cleaned it up. The best, someone have left the stove ON! I mean really?? Are you trying to kill us with the fumes? Who knows how long it had been left on, no one was home. That right there my friends is completely irresponsible! Who does that!?!?! Sadly it is not the first time it has happened. There have been multiple times the past year or so that we have all gone to bed and the stove has been left on. Needless to say that roommate stopped using the stove late at night bc she was so spacey. I am sick of dirty dishes piled high in the sink, people running the dishwasher and then being too lazy to take five mins to unload the clean dishes. I dont know if its bc they feel like it is not their job, or they dont know where half of the dishes go. Who knows, but it is annoying. It is really getting old to walk in the kitchen and find food left out, or bags of crap sitting on the counter for days on end. Who knows if it is garabage or not, people are just too lazy to take care of it. The sticky floor is a common occurance but really, no one seems to care, I think they have all become oblivious. Whatever. Cant change them. I have given up.

Now I know that everyone says that when you get married living with a guy brings on a whole new set of challanges. And I know that there will be some disagreements and what not, I am ok with it. But at least he tries. He knows that I am a clean person and I get irriated at things described above. And he really does not want to get on my bad side, he has said so himself. So really, I know it will be different but at least I will still love him even if he makes a mess and doesnt clean it up all the way. With roommates I have tried over and over to talk to them about it, but nothing happens. I have just learned to live with pigs on some occasions.
Anywho, there is my venting for the day. What a great way to start a week right? ;) Oh I was watching videos this morning on CMT while getting ready and I came across our song. Its Then by Brad Paisley. I am trying to get the video to load..... but until then, here is the link if you care to watch it. Happy Monday!